Letting go

I did something this weekend that I never would of thought I would of had to do….letting go. I didn’t want to by any means but I felt I needed to for the both of us and thought it was the right decision. I was/am afraid that I did it and I’d be lying if I said it didn’t hurt. It hurts so bad it’s the worst pain I ever had to deal with. My heart is hurting but I’m going to be ok in time. I will still hold out hope and have faith for the outcome I hoped for.


What is love?

This question has many different answers depending on the person it is asked to but I have my answer for this. Love is having that one person who you can’t stop thinking about no matter how hard you try. Love is your stomach turning into knots anytime you talk to them. Love is wanting the very best for them and wanting them to be happy. Love is having such an great body,mind and soul connection that words can’t describe. Love is wanting to tell them about all the good,bad and in between things that happen to daily. Love is getting a huge grin on your face every time you talk to them. Love is thinking they’re perfect in every which way. Love is never wanting to let them go. Most importantly love is never giving up on the person who love. This is my meaning of love since I am madly deeply in love.


Ever have that one situation where you want to be supportive of a certain person but you just can’t? Well I’m sure we’ve all been there and I’m there right now. I’ve been trying so hard to be supportive of my best friends relationship since I just want her to be happy and I want the very best for her since I love her with every fiber of my being. No matter how hard I try to be supportive it hurts more and more everytime and I really wish she knew that I’ve been trying to be in her corner no matter how much it hurts or how it breaks my heart so much. I want to say this to her but I know that’s not possible. All I can do is keep trying.

When words aren’t  enough 

Anybody can say certain words to make a meaningful sentence and can say it to someone who they care about but there’s those certain people and certain times where words just aren’t enough to explain how you feel or how much that one person means to you. Over the last year I’ve said some very deep and meaningful things that came directly from the bottom of my heart and soul but even those words don’t do it justice to express how much this person really means to me. I want to stand on a mountain top and scream I love this person with every fiber of my being and that I’ve never felt this way before in my life. It all comes from knowing this person is the one…my soulmate who made me a better person every single day. She was the one who saw me when I was invisible. She makes me see the sunshine when it’s dark and gloomy. This quote really speaks to great lengths

They mark a before and after in my life that would never be the same since they filled a large void in my life that i was missing and I believe we filled large voids in each others lives as well. Every day we don’t talk it actually feels like a piece of me has gone missing. It’s not fair that it feels like we are being torn apart and Words can’t desecribe how much it hurts. She is the most important person in my life and yes  I am scared to death  of losing her. She came Into my life randomly when I was confused and hurting which she made those feelings go away instantly and it’s an indescribable feeling to be honest. I know that I will marry her someday.

Cellucor G4 Alpha Amino Review

I was grateful for cellucor sending me a tub of the new G4 series alpha aminos try and wow this stuff is so amazing!! I have tried the old version of alphas and they were very good and thought nothing could beat them well I was so wrong since I’ve been using the new alphas this new formula is even better.  Upon opening the tub I got a scent of lemon lime which was nice to see and I noticed they made the scoop a lot bigger which I really love. When I first tried it I used once level scoop in about 16 ounces of cold water and shook it up pretty good and working seconds it was dissolved and no clumps whatsoever. I usually drink half before my workout to get it circulating through my system and half intra workout to keep me going to the end. The lemon lime flavor was strong in a good way and reminded me of my favorite sports drink but this was so much better since it doesn’t have the sugar and the flavor was intense. During my first set on chest day I noticed I was able to lift more and add more reps and it was like I didn’t want to quit thanks to the alphas. Usually by the time I get halfway through my routine I’m drained but not anymore since the G4 alphas kept my stamina strong and kept me focus until the every end. Also I usually drink a ton on water during my workout but it was really nice that the alphas kept me hydrated that I barely had to reach for my h20. I’ve never had an amino blend work so amazingly well and that proves the top notch quality cellucor put into this new G4 series. I HIGHLY recommend anyone who works out and is an athlete to pick up the new G4 alphas aminos since it’s the best around no question about it! 10/10

STACK’D Protein Pancake Review

With this being my very first product review I would like to thank STACK’D nutrition for giving me the chance to review their great products by sending me some to try out. They are such a great company and they are so kind and go out of their way to help you anyway they can. I’m very impressed by them. I will be reviewing five of their flavors today Original Buttermilk,Kokonut,Peppermint Mocha,Pumpkin Spice and Lemon and will review them on a 5 star scale.



Original Buttermilk
I wanted to give the buttermilk pancake mix a try first since my theory is you can always tell the quality of a pancake/waffle companies products by the ole stand bye buttermilk. When I was looking at the ingredient info I was very impressed since they only use all natural ingredients with no fillers and that’s important in a good protein pancake mix. Upon open the packet of mix you get a whiff of actual buttermilk which is a pleasant surprise since most smell chemically or bland. The instructions couldn’t have been easier (which is good since I’m impatient when it comes to making my food lol) all you need to do is mix in one egg white per serving and enough water to make a batter the consistency you like. Make sure you cook them on medium high heat so they get nice and crispy on the outside and nice and soft on the inside. Cook about three minutes then flip and cool for another 1-2 minutes after then enjoy! When I took my first bite of the buttermilk mix I was in heaven since it had exactly what you’d want for that classic buttermilk pancake…it was super light and you can easily tell the freshness of the ingredients. Plus with 25 grams of protein this is by far the best protein pancake mix I’ve tried and that’s no joke. The macros on one serving is
232 calories,3g fat,26g carbs and 25g protein….5/5 stars


I have never been a huge fan of coconut flavored products which led me to be a little hesitant on trying this mix but man was I surprised. Upon opening the mix you get a scent of coconut and a slight sweetness. After preparing this mix the coconut scent really comes out while you’re cooking the pancakes. When I took my first bite I was pleasantly surprised that it didn’t have that overpowering coconut taste like most flavored items and there was a nice little sweetness there to make it actually taste cake like which lead me to really enjoy this mix. If you love coconut this is the pancake mix for you and I must say this will the ONLY coconut product I will eat and that’s the truth! The macros are
240 calories,3g fat,28g carbs and 25g protein…..4/5 stars


Pumpkin Spice
I will be honest I’m a huge pumpkin spice addict since it has that distinct fall like aspect to it and it tastes pretty damn good. I was so excited to give this pumpkin spice pancake mix a try and I was not disappointed at all! Upon opening the mix you get a really nice scent of pumpkin spice and cinnamon which smells so good. You prepare these just like the others but I cooked mine a little longer since I like mine crispy. When cooking your whole kitchen fills with the scent of pumpkin and makes you wish you could bottle it up lol. Let’s just say this pancake didn’t last long since I are this so quick I didn’t know where it went it was that good! When you first take a bite you instantly get that distinct pumpkin spice taste but it’s not overpowering and that makes it even more enjoyable since certain pumpkin spice products can get sickening since it’s too potent but these had the perfect amount of spice. They are very light and remain soft on the inside and yet has a cake like texture. Overall I’d say these were my favorite pancakes and I’ll be making sure I stock up on them this fall. The macros are 232 calories,3g fat,26g carbs, 25g protein….5/5 stars



Let me just say these lemon pancakes were so refreshing and delicate. When I first opened the mix that nice fresh lemon scent was a refreshing change of pace. While cooking these it actually smells like your making lemon squares that’s how good they smell. While taking my first bite you get a nice refreshing lemon taste that isn’t tart or too powerful it’s just right to let you know it’s there without smacking you in the face. As I kept eating them I was thinking what do these remind me of and it came to me…lemon squares!! I kid you not these lemon pancakes taste just like a fresh baked lemon square it was very good. I liked how the lemon tastes like a fresh squeezed lemon and not that nasty bottled concentrated lemon. It was almost like a palate cleanser. Next time I will mix in some blueberries. The macros are 233 calories,3g fat,26g carbs and 25g protein….5/5 stars


Peppermint Mocha
Just to be clear this particular mix I wasn’t a fan of because I hate any good that is peppermint flavored and had nothing to do with the product itself. When opening this mix you get that strong peppermint scent with a nice hint of cocoa soon afterward. While cooking these it smells like an actual candy cane which tells you the ingredients were top notch and on point. When I took my first bite you can definitely tell this is peppermint mocha since the peppermint hits your taste buds quickly which any good peppermint flavor should but I really liked the cocoa flavor came to back it up and made for a nice back up. If you love peppermint mocha lattes this is the perfect pairing for you since it doesn’t let you down for the peppermint flavor. The macros are 240 calories,3g fat,28g carbs and 25g protein….1/5 stars just on personal preference but 5/5 on ingredients and taste


Overall I recommend you to try all these flavors since the ingredients are all natural,top notch and the flavors are exactly what they say they are. I was not disappointed at all with these and these are the best protein pancakes I’ve tried. 

Saying goodbye is not forever

On this valentines day I hold a heavy heart due a very complicated obstacle that has came my way over the last few days. I had to say goodbye to my best friend which was the hardest thing I ever had to do in my life since she was so much more than a best friend. She was someone who I loved with every fiber of my being and was a huge part of my life every single day for the last two years. Every time we talked a huge smile would appear on my face and was just an amazing experience sharing thoughts,ideas,fears and everything else with hers. She was always there for me which made me feel so special because her presence was so calming. She was the one who saw me when I was invisible which I’ll never forget that. I feel so lost without her since a piece of me is missing….my best friend. What makes it harder is that neither of us wanted to but was out of our control. Even though we ultimately said goodbye it doesn’t mean forever is only means I’ll miss you until we meet again BMCG.


Twin Flames

The other day a friend of mine was telling me they were reading about a very interesting topic called twin flames. It regards to the other part of you or a soulmate as many would say but it’s so much more than just that. It’s like looking in the mirror and seeing yourself in the other person. There’s certain things that will determine if a person is your twin flame and they’re very detailed. Here is an excerpt. I found a great article describing the signs of a twin flame. I’ll admit when I first started researching this I was blown and away and freaked out since it’s fascinating and spot on!! Give it a read and see of you found your twin flame.

1. Similarities With Birth Dates – This doesn’t mean that your twin flame was born on exact same day as you were. It means there will be something peculiar about their birthday. It may be the same birthday as a best friend or it may be the birthday of a brother or sister. There will be some kind of connection linked in with birthdays if you look hard enough.

2. The feeling like you already knew this person before you met. This can be kind of eerie sometimes. That feeling like you have already met this person somewhere before. Either in this life, a dream, or somewhere else. You will feel a strong connection with them anytime you think about them or they are in your presence.

3. They seem unreal to you at times. A twin flame may be so shocking for us to discover that they may feel unreal or like you are dreaming. I can assure you they are real and that you are not dreaming. That is just another part of the strange sense toward them we have.

4. They will share some or all of the same views and beliefs you have in life. They will have opinions that are aligned with yours. They will have the same long-term and short-term goals. If their goals are not exactly the same you will see similarities between theirs and yours.

5. If you disagree or fight it will be strong and devastating. This is the part about twin flames I dislike the most. If you are with your twin flame and you do fight. It will be so devastating that it will effect people around you and may even cause extreme pain in you like nothing else. It may feel as though someone has died. Fights with twin souls do happen and when they do they are the worst of anything you have ever experienced.

6. You meeting of this person will have meeting and symbolism. Don’t expect to find them on some dating site by emailing everyone on there. You may find them there, but it won’t be a simple meeting. It will be something you will remember and there will be something about your meeting that will flag a symbolism in your life. It could be on a special day or at a special place. It may be neither of the two. It could be that they fall right out of the sky when you least expect it.

7. You background story will contain lots of similarities and coincidences. You might have the exact same background or maybe not. You might just have a friend that is identical or maybe you lived within a certain distance at some point in time. It could be anything, pay close attention to the other person’s life story.

8. You will both complement each others abilities. Twin flames are part of the same soul. In that sense the other person will have the skill sets that you are missing. With both of you combined you become an unstoppable force.

9. You will feel how they feel even when there are great distances between you. You will feel their pain and happiness at all times. Once you tune in you will have that feeling in your gut if something is going very good or if the other person is in pain. This can sometimes be mistaken for other things such as sickness, but once you begin to understand how it works you will know exactly how the other person is feeling.

10. You may have had dreams or visions about this person or how you would meet. Sometimes your mind will perceive things outside of the normal bounds of reality. You may have had a vision of exactly the person you met or you may have had a dream about how you would meet your twin flame.

11. They must feel the exact same way toward you.
Identifying twin flame signs is a great way to get some extra reassurance that the person is your twin flame. There is nothing wrong with reading about it and sharing your story with others. Sometimes is such a shock that someone like this can exist that you can’t believe it at first. Once the newness passes you will become as happy as you ever have been and do all the things in life you have dreamed about. Share you experiences in the comment section below this article for others to read about your twin flame. Good Luck!”

I by no means own these steps. I give all the credit to http://www.danielbranch.com/how-to-identify-a-twin-flame-by-signs-and-similarities/

Enjoy the journey

I see far too often that people complain about the journey that they set themselves on and that’s the wrong negative approach. No matter what kind of journey you set your life on you need to embrace all the obstacles that come along with it. I’ve been at fault for not doing this but then I realized the journey is what it’s all about since you learn so much about yourself through the good and bad days. You will get knocked down a peg or two throughout but those are the times you must remind yourself why you’re doing it and why you want to see the finish along with many positive thoughts. I’ve been on many different journeys and each one has been a blessing because I’ve learned more and more about myself through each separate one. My message through this post is you will get discouraged and feel like giving up but you MUST always keep reinforcing all the positives and if you believe in it strong enough it will happen for you. NEVER GIVE UP!

What life is about

No matter what age or what kind of life you’re living you will always have certain forms of fears and dilemmas that challenge your mind constantly. Some you’ll be able to conquer quickly and some will prolong themselves until you either find the meaning of that certain one or it’s the right time you figure it out. Life can be extremely confusing which will make your mind cloudy but that’s when it’s actually most clear what you want out of it. I strongly believe everything that’s meant to happen will happen at the right moment and you just have to be patient. I’m not afraid to say when something scares me since that’s showing how strong you actually are to let it out into the open. This scares me death . My greatest fear is that I will never have the chance to actually show someone who is near and dear to my heart my true feelings and how I look forward to talking to her everyday. I know now isn’t the right moment to express this since things have been a little tensed because of stupid persistence and stubbornness but in due time I will find the right time to do so. Through certain blurry periods you really learn what your priorities are and who your priority is and that’s when you learn who is the most important person in your life. When you least expect it you meet people who are meant to be in your life now and for the long term. Then there’s those very special people who are sent to you since they are the other half to complete the puzzle and I know I have found the final piece since two people who are meant to be together will always find their way back to each other in the very end.