Saying goodbye is not forever

On this valentines day I hold a heavy heart due a very complicated obstacle that has came my way over the last few days. I had to say goodbye to my best friend which was the hardest thing I ever had to do in my life since she was so much more than a best friend. She was someone who I loved with every fiber of my being and was a huge part of my life every single day for the last two years. Every time we talked a huge smile would appear on my face and was just an amazing experience sharing thoughts,ideas,fears and everything else with hers. She was always there for me which made me feel so special because her presence was so calming. She was the one who saw me when I was invisible which I’ll never forget that. I feel so lost without her since a piece of me is missing….my best friend. What makes it harder is that neither of us wanted to but was out of our control. Even though we ultimately said goodbye it doesn’t mean forever is only means I’ll miss you until we meet again BMCG.



Twin Flames

The other day a friend of mine was telling me they were reading about a very interesting topic called twin flames. It regards to the other part of you or a soulmate as many would say but it’s so much more than just that. It’s like looking in the mirror and seeing yourself in the other person. There’s certain things that will determine if a person is your twin flame and they’re very detailed. Here is an excerpt. I found a great article describing the signs of a twin flame. I’ll admit when I first started researching this I was blown and away and freaked out since it’s fascinating and spot on!! Give it a read and see of you found your twin flame.

1. Similarities With Birth Dates – This doesn’t mean that your twin flame was born on exact same day as you were. It means there will be something peculiar about their birthday. It may be the same birthday as a best friend or it may be the birthday of a brother or sister. There will be some kind of connection linked in with birthdays if you look hard enough.

2. The feeling like you already knew this person before you met. This can be kind of eerie sometimes. That feeling like you have already met this person somewhere before. Either in this life, a dream, or somewhere else. You will feel a strong connection with them anytime you think about them or they are in your presence.

3. They seem unreal to you at times. A twin flame may be so shocking for us to discover that they may feel unreal or like you are dreaming. I can assure you they are real and that you are not dreaming. That is just another part of the strange sense toward them we have.

4. They will share some or all of the same views and beliefs you have in life. They will have opinions that are aligned with yours. They will have the same long-term and short-term goals. If their goals are not exactly the same you will see similarities between theirs and yours.

5. If you disagree or fight it will be strong and devastating. This is the part about twin flames I dislike the most. If you are with your twin flame and you do fight. It will be so devastating that it will effect people around you and may even cause extreme pain in you like nothing else. It may feel as though someone has died. Fights with twin souls do happen and when they do they are the worst of anything you have ever experienced.

6. You meeting of this person will have meeting and symbolism. Don’t expect to find them on some dating site by emailing everyone on there. You may find them there, but it won’t be a simple meeting. It will be something you will remember and there will be something about your meeting that will flag a symbolism in your life. It could be on a special day or at a special place. It may be neither of the two. It could be that they fall right out of the sky when you least expect it.

7. You background story will contain lots of similarities and coincidences. You might have the exact same background or maybe not. You might just have a friend that is identical or maybe you lived within a certain distance at some point in time. It could be anything, pay close attention to the other person’s life story.

8. You will both complement each others abilities. Twin flames are part of the same soul. In that sense the other person will have the skill sets that you are missing. With both of you combined you become an unstoppable force.

9. You will feel how they feel even when there are great distances between you. You will feel their pain and happiness at all times. Once you tune in you will have that feeling in your gut if something is going very good or if the other person is in pain. This can sometimes be mistaken for other things such as sickness, but once you begin to understand how it works you will know exactly how the other person is feeling.

10. You may have had dreams or visions about this person or how you would meet. Sometimes your mind will perceive things outside of the normal bounds of reality. You may have had a vision of exactly the person you met or you may have had a dream about how you would meet your twin flame.

11. They must feel the exact same way toward you.
Identifying twin flame signs is a great way to get some extra reassurance that the person is your twin flame. There is nothing wrong with reading about it and sharing your story with others. Sometimes is such a shock that someone like this can exist that you can’t believe it at first. Once the newness passes you will become as happy as you ever have been and do all the things in life you have dreamed about. Share you experiences in the comment section below this article for others to read about your twin flame. Good Luck!”

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Enjoy the journey

I see far too often that people complain about the journey that they set themselves on and that’s the wrong negative approach. No matter what kind of journey you set your life on you need to embrace all the obstacles that come along with it. I’ve been at fault for not doing this but then I realized the journey is what it’s all about since you learn so much about yourself through the good and bad days. You will get knocked down a peg or two throughout but those are the times you must remind yourself why you’re doing it and why you want to see the finish along with many positive thoughts. I’ve been on many different journeys and each one has been a blessing because I’ve learned more and more about myself through each separate one. My message through this post is you will get discouraged and feel like giving up but you MUST always keep reinforcing all the positives and if you believe in it strong enough it will happen for you. NEVER GIVE UP!


In life there is no such thing as a easy path where everything goes perfectly smooth without worry. Many often try to find it but it just doesn’t exist. Obstacles are actually a blessing since you learn a great deal about you strong you are to overcome them or if you let the weakness take control and defeat you. I’ve had far too many obstacles to even count in my life and a lot more recently. The categories of these obstacles range from fitness to life in general but each one has come for a reason. I’m a strong minded person who makes my opinions be known so that backfires at times but never let that bring me down. The mind is the most powerful force around which causes many people to struggle with said obstacles since they let their mind play on them and only think of the negatives. I don’t let that happen to me since I usually always look at the positive side of things and that has taught me a lot in life. My most recent obstacle has played on my mind but I refuse to let it take negative control on me. One thing you have to remember is obstacles are temporary and if you’re like me very impatient but always remember there are certain things that you don’t mind waiting for since amazing things take time especially if it’s someone very special.

Hard work pays off

For the last year or so people have had the assumption that I have been handed everything that I have in my life right now. I have decided to write this post to set those jackasses straight. I have worked my ass off over the years to get where I am right now and have had too many obstacles to overcome. I had to grow up quickly when I was a teenager due to my dad getting sick and basically had to run my family while dealing with other issues. I am actually very grateful that happened to me since I learned so many things from that experience. I am a take charge kind of person who will go after anything I feel that I need  or want.I am not afraid to be persistent and be aggressive. I have also met some great people along the way who have taught me a few things about how to live life your way.  Right now now I have so many great things in my life and and DO NOT have to rely on anyone for any of it.I have my own car and pay for my own bills and groceries. People think that I rely on my parents as well just cause I still live at home until I’m done with college. The only thing is I don’t pay rent. I cook,clean,do laundry and so many other things for myself and wouldn’t want it any other way. I have so many big ideas for the future and will not let things be handed to me. I will work my ass off for what I want and these last seven years were actually a blessing in disguise.

What’s wrong with this picture?

Everywhere I turn nowadays all I see is ads and special promotions for fast food chains and  other unhealthy options. It’s no surprise that the reason the reason why companies do this is because they know the general public can be easily persuaded by the cheap prices and the over sized quantities that they offer. They are most likely to give these companies business mainly because it’s cheap. I get so frustrated by the fact that companies know that they are really the only source of cheap food for people and families who can’t afford to at least try and eat healthier. Only in America CRAP food is so easily obtainable  meanwhile healthy food is priced too  high for the average person/family. I am grateful that I don’t have to worry about affording good and nutritious food but there are so many others out there who want to live a healthier lifestyle but just can’t afford to. So naturally their only other alternatives are cheap shitty food that will cause them serious health problems down the line.I guarantee you that nine times out of ten that a family who is on a very tight budget will always opt for the fast food since it takes less money to feed a family on that crappy food.  This makes me very angry that these companies are exploiting the average person by offering these cheap products because they know they really have no other choice but to buy their products. I keep hearing how we have created a war against obesity but what are we actually doing about it? not that much. Let me make this clear I’m not saying to ban all of the fast food and other junk foods and I’m not trying to tell you what you can and can’t eat. All I’m saying is  there needs to be a serious discussion about how to make better healthier foods more affordable to the average person/family.

My new outlook on life

Over the last year or so my outlook has changed in a big way. Last year around this time I was stressing out a lot about family/school and even personal stuff that was going on.I’ve always been a highly independent person and took care of things on my own and a positive person who looked on the positive side. So around this time last year I met someone who would drastically change and reinforce how I thought and really opened me up to great new things. She always puts a huge smile on my face every time we talk.She introduced me to Rumi’s work which is very uplifting and inspirational which I read every single day and also meditation. She told me that meditation in the mornings is the best thing for you to silence the outside world and focus on you and your soul during that time. She also taught me don’t be afraid of doing anything and be open to new exciting opportunities(live life).I’ve gotten into rock climbing a whole lot since last year and go as much as I can now. I grew to love all aspects of climbing and cant wait to try it on some real mountains.It is a awesome way to experience the outdoors and pushes you to the limits. Oh and don’t even get me started on the excellent conversations that would go on for hours.It seemed like any conversation we had could go on for hours and be amazing. It’s great to actually talk to someone who you have so much in common with and share the same interests. She has always pushed me to do better greater things and do things I love which now I am going for my CHEK certification. She is a very special friend and words can’t explain how amazing she really is. No matter how many times I’ve told her that didn’t do it justice. She will always inspire me and and I just can’t say enough how she has changed the way I look at life. I deeply care about her.This goes out to you. Always making me smile



When I first started this journey I will admit my confidence was not high at all and I was always was the person who walked in public with their head down. I used to hate going out places since I always was worried what others would think about me and hated how I felt and looked. During my fitness journey I could easily tell that every time I showed progress my confidence was getting better and better and realized that I don’t need to hear what others think to make me feel good. It was all about what I felt about myself on the inside. Finally about a year after I had lost my 95lbs my confidence was at an all time high for the first time in life. I learned to say who gives a fuck what the outside world thinks of me and I felt great about myself and that was all that mattered. So after that when I started to pack on muscle and get the physique I was proud of I now go out in public holding my head up high and going around like I’m the big mother fucker on campus!! It really is a great feeling finally being able to feel comfortable with yourself. Also the compliments don’t hurt lol.

Motivation and supplements

On this update I will start out with what motivates me to keep doing what I do. I can’t even tell you how many times I’ve been told by friends,random people and yes even my family that I’m crazy for pushing myself so hard to better my body. The main thing I tell everyone is that I do this for myself not anyone else. I wasn’t handed anything through my journey and had to work my ass off to get where I am today. What you have to remember is when you do start to adopt a regular workout routine you are not just making your body healthier but also you mind and soul is getting a huge benefit from it as well. My family has a lot of history with health problems and luckily I have been blessed so far to not have been affected by that. My dad has had too many health problems  to count over the last 15 years or so and it hurts me to see him deal with it. That was one of the main reasons I decided I will not put myself at risk for developing those same problems.  Besides for some anxiety issues I have been very lucky in my life. I have come a long way in only the past three years and my biggest motivation from the start and going forward is I DO NOT want to go back to where I started out and I REFUSE to let myself do that. I don’t do this for the compliments (sure they are great) and never will. I treat my body like a temple and push it to its limit probably more than I should but that’s what gives me that drive and determination. Just remember no matter what obstacles come your way during your journey NEVER give up and ALWAYS have hope even when you think there isn’t any. Last year was the worst year out of my life and believe it or not my fitness lifestyle helped me cope with what I was going through and was always something I could turn to no matter what. Also someone who I deeply care about has been pushing me to get into the fitness business since late last year and I have finally decided to take their advice and am looking forward to start my new journey getting my C.H.E.K certification.



Now this supplement section is going to be very short and sweet. The only supplements I take is whey protein (Body Fortress Super Advanced) and a multi vitamin. Trust me I’m not against any other supplements by myself personally I just don’t see the need to take them. I prefer getting my nutrients from whole foods. When I first started out I tried taking a pre-workout supp but I just didn’t feel like it helped me and made me sick to my stomach during my workout.  There are days where I just don’t feel dragging my ass to my garage (where I workout) but like I said in the above section I tell myself it’s going come back to haunt you if you don’t. The best advice is to eat a carb heavy meal or snack and a cup of coffee or two about 30 minutes to and hour before you start working out so that way the carbs will keep you going. Again for me the same goes for post workout supplements the only one I fell necessary is whey protein. I say that because whey is the fastest absorbed protein to get into your muscle tissues to repair them after you intense workout. Taking whey after working out is a MUST in my books. The multi vitamin is basically just to make sure your body is getting any other essential vitamins your body is missing through out the day.


Here I will share with you what my workouts usually consist of and different variations I do.

This is my current workout routine since I’m toning up and maintaining. When I’m either bulking,cutting or maintaining I still prefer full body routines rather than split routines.

My current routine Mondays,Wednesdays,Fridays

Incline bench press (3 sets 15 reps)

Flat bench press (3 sets 15 reps)

Decline bench press (3 sets 15 reps)

Barbell bicep curls ( 2 sets 20 reps)

Hammer curls (2 sets 15 reps)

Deadlifts ( 3 sets 10 reps)

Leg extensions ( 3 sets 12 reps)

Lat bar pulldown ( 3 sets 15 reps)

Dips ( 3 sets 15 reps)

When you want to tone up you usually will want to drop your normal weights down around 20-30lbs to make sure you can get the more reps in per set.



This is my cardio/core routine I do Tuesdays,Thursdays,Saturdays

HIIT on an incline for 20 minutes all three days

I usually switch up my core workouts depending on the days

Tuesdays- Hanging leg raises (4 sets 10 reps) and weighted crunches (4 sets 15 reps)

Thursdays – Planks and side planks ( 2 sets each and hold for 1 minute 30 seconds) and Russian twists (3 sets 10 reps)

Saturdays – Flutter kicks (3 sets hold for 1 minute) and Cable crunches ( 3 sets 15 reps)


Also What I have been doing for the last 6 months is I meditate in the mornings after I wake up to clear my head and get my day started. I can thanks a very special friend for getting me into this. I usually meditate for a half hour with complete silence. Another very important tip is drink plenty of water while working out. It is very important that you keep your body hydrated and believe it or not it will give you energy.