Over the last week things have been extremely rough and heart wrenching for me. The one thing that hurts the most is not talking to my best friend. Everyday we don’t talk it feels like a piece of me is missing and eventhough all I want to do is reach out I know I can’t right now. I never thought things would of been like this between us but that’s life unexpected things happen and you need to see how you can fix them. I have been trying to stay positive that things will work out and I will continue to try my hardest to fix this situation.
I did something this weekend that I never would of thought I would of had to do….letting go. I didn’t want to by any means but I felt I needed to for the both of us and thought it was the right decision. I was/am afraid that I did it and I’d be lying if I said it didn’t hurt. It hurts so bad it’s the worst pain I ever had to deal with. My heart is hurting but I’m going to be ok in time. I will still hold out hope and have faith for the outcome I hoped for.
This question has many different answers depending on the person it is asked to but I have my answer for this. Love is having that one person who you can’t stop thinking about no matter how hard you try. Love is your stomach turning into knots anytime you talk to them. Love is wanting the very best for them and wanting them to be happy. Love is having such an great body,mind and soul connection that words can’t describe. Love is wanting to tell them about all the good,bad and in between things that happen to daily. Love is getting a huge grin on your face every time you talk to them. Love is thinking they’re perfect in every which way. Love is never wanting to let them go. Most importantly love is never giving up on the person who love. This is my meaning of love since I am madly deeply in love.
Ever have that one situation where you want to be supportive of a certain person but you just can’t? Well I’m sure we’ve all been there and I’m there right now. I’ve been trying so hard to be supportive of my best friends relationship since I just want her to be happy and I want the very best for her since I love her with every fiber of my being. No matter how hard I try to be supportive it hurts more and more everytime and I really wish she knew that I’ve been trying to be in her corner no matter how much it hurts or how it breaks my heart so much. I want to say this to her but I know that’s not possible. All I can do is keep trying.